the king is dead..long live mcqueen

sugarbabies…

i dont lean toward the dramatic…ok maybe i do…im  a leo…its in my genetic makeup…and… my relationship with fashion…well…its complicated…but its true that im not at allll trying to be dramatic when i say that…sometimes i can go almost two days without thinking

fucking hell…mcqueen …is gone….

mostly i think of him while im dressing… sliding on his bangle… ring… or shoe .. i reach for the iconic silk scarves less this time of year… partly because i want a warmer cashmere and partly because i treasure them more than ever and figure most of my meetings dont deserve him…

i miss him

and its a selfish miss….if there was anything that i needed to work on but was uninspired…id merely put it off and wait for fashion week to roll around… and just let him inspire me in some direction..(im a lazy bitch we have covered that before)…and every season… id be all …“oh im not gonna get my hopes up last season was soooo good surely this one will be a let down”.… but it never was…. there was a double amputee model on carved wooden legs for christs sake… there were paint spraying robots painting white cotton dresses as models sauntered down the runway…and the shoes… omg…every season the shoes….the amazing red cape that hes quoted as saying came from a  “sinister place“… the sequins that were more like scales…etc. etc. etc…::sigh::

i even turned to my asst  after his last show watching those crazy claw shoes and the undersea creature platforms and said …

“well he can die happy  now he’s never gonna top that”….

but i didnt mean it…

and it wasnt  true…. the stuff that he had ready for the next season was spectacular… and morbid… and genius…

and well…. its fashion week…and every time someone says something about it …. i just kinda shrug …

I am sure that there are new and talented designers out there….and i am sure i would find them inspiring …. i even like the stuff his house has been putting out since his passing- those kids  are working hard to be true to his vision (as if we could know it)… but ….

im not ready yet…

im still grieving l’enfant terrible…

the king is dead…….. long live mcqueen

xoxo